i woke up with all my weapons drawn. i knew youd be there as soon as i opened my eyes..maybe even seconds before.

5:55am. im up. im at it. im not backing down.

no sign of you.

nothing around the room.

nothing when i turned this thing on.

i showered.

i shaved.

i combed.

i glossed.

i dressed.

i left.

i drove.

i arrived.

no sign of you.

not even a slight regurgitation of a memory.

im folding in two. im folding the way mom's lawn chairs do.

no sign of you.

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