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09.14.04 . 9:48 a.m.
bad news bears

my boyfriend andy, and i...well, we seem to be having this weird, whats the word...i dont know.

we dont fight, we get on really well. but lately, i have fears that are causing me to doubt things. not him, and not us, but just things. i am doubting myself, and i am doubting life, and i am doubting fairness.

i dont know how to really articulate any of this, at all...but something inside of me is screaming, and crying, and ive been sad for a week and a half, and i cant shake the feelings.

i miss him, and i miss us, and i miss things, and i dont know when i will see him again, and we're both fucking broke, and long distance relationships are the hardest thing in the world...and and and and.

i dont know.

i am just sad.

x

andy:

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