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03.12.03 . 12:24 p.m. sunday night i took a black permanent marker & drew a heart on the skin that hides my ribs. the water from bathing has yet to remove it. it somehow makes my body feel solid. i know theres something to feel. i know theres something to give. my body is fucked from the exhaustian due to lack of sleep, and my stomach hurts from the emptiness. and i blame you when really, i should blame myself. i shouldnt give you that much credit. if i knew it was me who made someone lose their appreciation of an evening sky, i would be devistated. (i feel you would not) if i knew it was me who made someone forget about sunsets and wine, i wouldnt want to breathe. all of the things i once found beautiful mean very little to me these days. and for what? all for you? i should be so much bigger than that. than all of that! than all of this and all of you! and i cant seem to tear myself away from the feeling of seperation or the feeling of losing a battle i never even began to fight in the first place. so fuck you. your coldness could freeze the south in a matter of seconds. & me? i happen to love the heat. x |
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